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Imagine for a second if I had been able to peek into the future and see this video fifteen years ago. How that would have changed things for me. I wouldn't have felt so helpless watching my husband's life hang in the balances. One look and I would have known he would survive to see our children grow up and to be together as a family.
Would it have changed things for him? Would this glimpse of future joys have made the pain of that time easier to bear? There were days his fight was so hard he was ready to give up. Would he have found courage holding one of there photos, knowing that better times were ahead?
Such a joy that would have been to know how God’s plan would be perfected in us. The long years fighting for my husband’s life gave me a strength and resilience I did not previously possess. Living so close to death had an amazing way of changing my perspectives and brought Heaven into focus so real and alive. The hardships were many, tears beyond number. Struggling to hold on to the one I loved… then learning to let go and trust his life into God’s hands.
Would it have changed things for him? Would this glimpse of future joys have made the pain of that time easier to bear? There were days his fight was so hard he was ready to give up. Would he have found courage holding one of there photos, knowing that better times were ahead?
Such a joy that would have been to know how God’s plan would be perfected in us. The long years fighting for my husband’s life gave me a strength and resilience I did not previously possess. Living so close to death had an amazing way of changing my perspectives and brought Heaven into focus so real and alive. The hardships were many, tears beyond number. Struggling to hold on to the one I loved… then learning to let go and trust his life into God’s hands.
So often when we are in the midst of hardships, our vision is clouded and hope can be so hard to find.
I think of what it would have been like to bring these photos back in time to my past self, as I lay in the hospital recovering from yet another surgery. I would have liked to comfort that younger me, overcome with pain and fear, to tell her this cancer would pass and that everything would be okay. I would let her know that this was only one more stepping stone on the journey of life.
I think I would also cry with the younger me trying to cope with the sudden sentence of disability. The endless days imprisoned on her bed barely able to move, being told by doctors that her condition was incurable and permanent, the suffocating depression of realizing that life as she knew it was over. I would tell her to hold on, that the pain will not last forever.
I would show young Marie these pictures and let her know that miracles do happen and joyful hope can spring gloriously from a life that is broken and crushed. Somehow God would take my hopeless dreams and He would make it a reality, more wonderful than our wildest imagination.
I think I would also cry with the younger me trying to cope with the sudden sentence of disability. The endless days imprisoned on her bed barely able to move, being told by doctors that her condition was incurable and permanent, the suffocating depression of realizing that life as she knew it was over. I would tell her to hold on, that the pain will not last forever.
I would show young Marie these pictures and let her know that miracles do happen and joyful hope can spring gloriously from a life that is broken and crushed. Somehow God would take my hopeless dreams and He would make it a reality, more wonderful than our wildest imagination.
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Who would have ever thought that our struggling family, laden with debilitating health issues, weighted down with debts, barely able to care for ourselves and our four children, would once again cross the oceans and see our dreams become reality. That God would choose such weak, humbled, broken vessels to be the bearers of His love and ambassadors of His kingdom.
This was our walk of faith. This was our journey into the miracle, and each photo here is joyous evidence of that miracle. What had come into my life with so much loss, in the end was only gain, filled with hope and purpose.
Dearest friend, no matter how hard, dark or scary your road right now, put your life in God's hands and let Him make it into something wonderful. Tomorrow may be the start of your miracle... For the full story, see my book, Tears Turned to Gold.
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